Hi GH- Thanks for your response. You bring up a good point. There are times when I wonder if my H feels the sex is just sex. But, last night, he commented on how nice it was to feel so close to me, and that he needed me. He asked me if i was glad that i went to the house and i told him yes. I remember something he said to me a while ago. Intimacy had always been an issue for us - i was very rejecting of him, for various reasons that i won't get into. And one day, while talking about this, he said that he always wanted to be with me b/c it helped him to feel close to me, that it wasn't just about the sex. So, i guess if i think about that, then now this is more about ML. It just seemed like last night, we felt especially close to each other and it didn't feel like it was just an act. And i think the fact that he wanted me to stay there was significant - this has only come up one other time in the past 6 or 7 months. So, i am not sure what to think or feel. I chose to leave last night b/c i knew that if i stayed, i would think it meant more than it possibly did, and i couldn't do that to myself. So, i guess i will see what happens today. I just hope that he understands how much this closeness means to me...and i hope it means as much to him. Have i mentioned how much i hate this?
