Not too much of an update today. H called yesterday evening...there is a lot of stuff going on for him at work, so he is feeling very overwhelmed and upset. We talked about it and he thanked me for listening. I told him if he wanted to talk again, i would be home. But he said he was going to the gym and then had some stuff to do (read, be with ow?). Woke up at 3:38 this morning and couldn't go back to sleep...felt very anxious with thoughts of H and ow and all of his lies. There are things that he does sometimes that just make no sense to me. I guess its not supposed to. I told him the other day that i had a bad dream...he asked me what happened. I told him that i had dreamed that i found pix in his wallet of him with someone and her kids in like a family portrait. All he said was, "i have no pix in my wallet. except one of you." So, i said "i thought you took it out" (he did this last year after my betrayal...i found the pix in his watch box several months ago. then when i looked again, they weren't there). He said "i did." So, of course i think that he is lying about this, b/c i think he lies about everything. But, if he is lying, why even mention it...its not like i asked him if he had a pix of me in his wallet...i was under the assumption that he didn't. So, could it be true? I know, this is stupid, analyzing this. But, i can't help it.
Feeling a little bit better today. Don't think i will see H this weekend on my visit, as he will be going to a superbowl party. Oh well.
