Hey SS- Thank you for your kind words. Its hard to feel loveable when the one person who chose to love you for the rest of your life no longer feels that way...the rejection is unbearable. Its hard to believe that my H loves me, when he is clearly lying to me and has been for so long...i mean, really, how does he live with himself? Which is when i start to think that maybe he isn't the person i thought he was, and that maybe he never loved me. B/c the man i married would not be acting this way...but, he is gone and who knows if he will ever return. Well, i should say, he is gone from my life...i am sure ow is getting all of his good qualities. I would love to go to her house and just tell her how it is...i am sure she would be shocked to know that my H and I are still intimate.
I know that i have to get out...hard to do when there is no one to do things with. I might take some classes, so that will keep me occupied.
