Hugs. I’m sorry this is so hard. I cried last night, too. Up and down, all the time, right? There is nothing unlovable about you; remember this is your H’s problem, not yours. He is lost and mixed up right now, and trying to find his way. You can’t take anything he does personally, ok? You are a wonderful person and there are many men who would love to be with you, although I know that doesn’t interest you right now. But you must keep it in mind; you wouldn’t be alone if your marriage ended. I have had to tell myself the same thing in recent weeks. This may sound like odd advice but try not to think about the good times, like your wedding, right now. I have had to put all those kinds of things out of my mind. We have to remember that those memories are wonderful but they do not reflect how our H’s feel right now. They have changed and become different; we can’t compare how they are now to how they were then. Someday we can look back, once we have made it past all this pain, and enjoy the happier times, but it’s overload to focus on them right now. Doing this makes me backslide. I hope you have a good day, Imdi. I’ll be thinking of you. Hope
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
