Hope - sounds like you had a nice time with Sassy...hope she posts those pix! We should try to meet up one weekend.
Had a pretty terrible weekend...very quiet. I have been feeling extremely depressed the past few days. Thoughts of my H and ow are running rampant through my head...i can't get them to stop. Visited with my cats yesterday...i miss them soooo much. Didn't see H. He called yesterday around 1pm...i hadn't gotten to my house yet and he was out already (or never came home, i don't know which). I got to my house a little after that and was there until 7p. H didn't come home while i was there. He called about 8:30...claimed he had been at his brothers all day. We talked for a bit...the usual "how are you? are you eating?" from him. He didn't feel well. He said he would call me today. God, i just can't stand it anymore. I am trying to get to a place where i just don't care anymore, but i can't. I just can't imagine my life without my H...i believe that we were meant to be together. My H told me a few weeks ago, when i asked him i should still have hope, that he couldn't make that decision for me. And, he's right...although he could have told me there was no hope, which he didn't say. But, in order for me to make that decision, i think that i need to have all relevant information...including if there is an ow...isn't that the fair thing? How can i decide this if i don't know all the variables? I just don't understand him one bit. If he loves me as much as he claims to, then don't you figure out a way to make this work? Perhaps he loves ow more. I told him about my nightmares...he didn't have much to say. He says he doesn't want to lead me on, but then he does and says things that do just that...doesn't he see it? I feel so miserable...and i just wish it would stop. Does the pain ever end?
