Well, I had a C session today. It was supposed to be all about me, but in light of last night's big R talk, it ended up being all about the M. I think that was good though because my C got to the DB ideals quite on her own. Get this, from a woman who has NO idea what DB is. She told me that it sounds like I need to stop talking about the R with my W, stop focusing on the OM (stop snooping), be nice but basically put the marriage on hold for now in my head and heart. I should treat my W as a friendly roommate and give things time. She also said to work on myself as the more I have other things going on besides W and the kids, and the more I take care of me, the more attractive I become. Does that sound familiar? I have gone into DB a little with her in the past, but never called it by name. I even admitted to C today that I was unsure if she even supported my way of handling this situation. Obviously she does. It was good to hear someone live, in person, say those things to me. I still don't feel 100%. W stayed home tonight so that makes things easier. I know with the Superbowl coming up this weekend and it being on Sunday night (her night with the OM) I am sure to get a bit worked up. We have always watched the game together. I don't know what her plans are but I am going to try to be prepared. If she goes, then I guess me and the boys will have one HELL of a Superbowl party...as much as a heart broken 35 year old and his 5 & 3 year old sons can...
Look for a new thread tomorrow. The chains are a comin'
