Well all, I am facing another crisis of sorts. I was cleaning the kitchen as my W was leaving for the night. Sitting on the counter, plain as day, was a business card for a lawyer. Of course, I got stupid all of a sudden, took the card and went to my W who was just getting in her car. I asked her what it was. Of course she said it was a business card. I said yes, for a lawyer. She said it was just a friend of hers. I asked it she was a divorce lawyer. She said no and left. Then she called a few minutes later and asked why I was freaked out by the card. I just said I was sorry, it's just how my mind works these days. I told her I thought it was left out on purpose to send a message. She said no, that she needed someone to talk to, like I have. WTF! I said, I have nobody to talk to. She said I did, my therapist. WTF! She changed the subject to talk about the kids. After she hung up, I called back and asked her is she was willing to talk to someone other than a lawyer. She said yes, but blew it off. She said she was meeting this person tonight. She said she would talk to me later. I have no idea what this is. Could she be "just a friend"? I suppose, but when she said she "needed someone to talk to" and this person was it, I think she basically told me what's up. I don't know what to do here. She said she'd talk to me later. It's bound to come up when she comes home. How do I handle it? I am so shaken right now. This is happening so fast, or not. I know I'm not supposed to assume, but in the context of this conversation we may have later, I'm left no choice. Damn this! Maybe it's going to be the final act tonight...
