I want to move forward for myself, but as these things get put in my face, I am thinking that, like Frank, Vince, and others, that my W is going forward without me so maybe it's time I do the same, for real. Look, I am a much better person than I was a month ago but along with that comes a bit of self preservation that is making me want to confront her right now. I don't want to tell her I know anything, but I think it would happen. I just want to make her lie to me. I want to ask her if she loves him. What would that solve? Nothing I guess, but this hurts as much as the first bomb drop did, maybe worse. I can handle it better now but I am looking for a way to get through the day with this knowledge. She knows I'm in a mood. She doesn't know why. If I am to salvage this opportunity to shine in front of all these people (S3's bday party) then I have to find a way to pull it together! Help!
