It is so tough, Erin. I know that it can be very difficult. I think that the best thing you can try to do emotionally is to let him go. Don't stop loving him, but try to accept that your marriage is over (at least, it will be a different marriage if he ever returns to it).

When I came to accept that my marriage was over, I was much better able to focus on "dating" my W and doing things that were likely to bring her back. You may want to see Tim's thread for the extraordinary results that he got when he "let go" of his marriage.

I also think you should look for a 180 to do. It might be that you stop talking to him altogether and stop doing your 15 minutes a week. It might be something else. You may also want to revisit GAL and find something new to do.

You CAN get through this and be a happier and better person for it.

The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)