I know I haev to let go, and I know that in time it will hurt a tiny bit less. But my ego is bruised. She and I are so similar, it is downright scary. Aside from her lack of morality, of course. But politically, philosophically, even our life paths have been remarkably similar. it just is so weird that he left me to be with me, kwim?
I will let this go. I have to.
Honey, what a beautiful post...not usually one to do a "me too" but have to here...thank you for putting into such lovely words what has taken me 6mos to learn.
You will do beautifully my friend. I can totally relate to the bruised ego. I think that hurts more than the broken heart. I wonder sometimes if it was more ego than heart. My therapist suggested once that had I been the one to be brave enough to end it I wouldn't have gone through what I did. I just didn't have the guts that he did.
Realizing that he was not the person I thought he was helped me so very much on my personal search...I'm actually doing great now...making new friends, going to find a new hobby (thinking ballroom dancing, LOL with my horse trainer) and hell maybe even buy a new horse this year. Maybe somewhere along the road I'll find someone but if I don't, it's not the end of the world. There is so much more to learn about myself and I am only just beginning to discover me and what I am looking for in an R.
