"i realize im screwing up everyday but cant seem to help myself." Oh that is so me. I've been told the principles we mean to use are often counter-intuitive. It's a struggle.
"One thing that i am very concerned about is the involvement of all of our friends and family,and i am partly to blame for that...but literally everyone has taken my side on this whole thing,and im just afraid that if she ever did want to come back if she would with all the baggage we have layed out these last 3 months." Yep. I think a lot about this same thing. Not only our family and friends, but now ow's family and friends are involved. And the neighbors. The WAS has to be concerned about how they appear now to all these people. And walking back makes it look like they were wrong after all. I do think that becomes a large hurdle.
"She wants a good divorce??(is there such a thing)She still has this thought in her head that everything could still be the same.We can be a happily Divorced couple." Oh this is my H's fantasy also. He thinks we can be very good lifelong friends. Maybe a whole lot of time could change my mind, but I doubt it. That's one thing that I can not imagine ever happening. Only in his dreamworld.
