Well,
i posted on another topic for the first time earlier this week,maybe it should have been here.Though my wife still denies denies denies anything physical has ever happened(caught her in an intimate phone conversation,and know they have been together quite frequently)only a fool would believe her..which is what i was trying to do..i think only to make it easier for her to come back..i would tell her i didnt think she has done anything..but she continues to run me through the mud..we are seperated....im living at Mom's...we have 3 D's 6,8,12..she spends every weekend night away from home.She will not say she wants a divorce,says she only wants time to make sure what she wants..its been three months now.We have filed for legal seperation but have not signed on it yet..she wants it not me...i think she only wanted it so as to not feel guilty about committing adultery..
Well today is her Birthday and i can not take it anymore..i told her she had to end the A and prove to me she wanted to work on the marriage or she would never have another chance...
I feel i have lost most of my dignity through this with all the begging,pleading,crying etc. over the past 3 months all while she has been seemingly unaffected and seeing someone else.
And when i really think about it..how can i wait for her A to fizzle and then want me back only because she's tired of that.Actually i have no clue what im doing or what i have done,all i know is im tired of it..im tired of her getting what she wants,i've been reduced to an every other weekend Dad just so she dont have to feel guilty about messing around..knowing "i think"that she will eventually want me to come back.I just feel like its time for her to be held accountable for something and stop living in this fantasy world...either its gonna be like this or it isn't..the choice is yours..
Im willing to forgive and forget all,but feel i cant let it continue knowing its going on,and i cant really feel to bad about that.I've flip-flopped so mant times during this that im sure she doesn't believe me,but im sticking to it this time to see how serious she really is about this,and then i can move on.(i think) Opinions Welcome
dee
