CeMar, Boy, can I equate!!! I am in the same boat in all of this. One of the biggest issues is just what you said.. "I crave physical touch, it can not in any way be turned off." That is exactly how I am!!! That has been one of the biggest problems for me. And when my wife goes for 5 years without being able to touch me....ever... even in small ways.. while I am very attracted to her.. creates a torture situation for me. That craving has lead me to do some stupid things, it has made me make some very stupid choices. It's part of the reason my wife is poing the question that she is, as she doesn't feel I am capable of living a life away from it..
