Hanging on/The Long Haul #8

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I heard this on the radio this morning - If you’re waiting for a hug you might want to pack a lunch.

So cool! It was snowing this morning, the great big fluffy flakes. I went out and stood in it, and looked up, awesome. It feels like being in a snow globe all shook up. Totally awesome. And yup, just like a kid, I tried catching some flakes on my tongue. It was contagious, and before I knew it I had company, and more company. Fun.

You are correct, shocked. Some of those are positives. He was home a little earlier, which means he was home before 7pm, that makes it one night so far this year. This isn’t his busy time of year, he used to say he hated working late in the evenings, the bank account doesn’t look like he is drowning in revenue from late night appointments. Really, after over two years, is that a positive? Or a statement.

The horse advice, I appreciate his reputation and opinion and knowledge. Our horses are a business, not just a hobby. The better I do with my horse, the better it reflects on both of us and our reputation, the better our business, the better the income. Just as I helped, advised, critiqued him as he was developing our stallion into a World Champion. That stallion now has over a dozen World Champion titles in various events, in just two years, the toughest two years of our marriage. H did the riding, I did the behind the scene support. We are a great team, in the horse business. That’s never been disputed, that’s a part of our business marriage that H has left available to me. There were the times that he would seek me out when he came home, walk to wherever I was working with a horse, and I would stop and lean down for a kiss. THAT is what is missing from our real marriage.

Another tickle/wrestlefest in bed last night. Good? Positive? Probably. Does it mean we’ll grow old together? It would be nice.

I want to be positive, I want to be happy, and the people I work with keep asking what drugs I am on that I am happy and ‘giggly’. They even asked if H called and responded to my invitation which should prompt me to be happy. Nope, haven’t heard from him. But you know what? I did something for me, to make myself happy, and I played in a snow globe this morning.