But here I am serious again, I'm not sure what I would do right now if H came to initiate something. The moment might be okay, if I could shut off my thoughts. But I know he would pull back after that and there would be the big backslide and climbing back out again. I'm doing better with a little easy conversation now than some big physical thing. But I sure could use a BIG HUG, with real arms around me, it would be nice.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
