Last night, H stopped home for a few minutes before he left for skiing. He had a bunch of stuff he had to drop off at an accountant for one the volunteer organizations on his way to skiing, things it looked like he had worked on quite a bit during the day. He had an armload with more to go, so I carried some stuff for him to his truck. When I came out a second time, I was going to walk around the opposite side of his truck, but noticed him standing by the door. I thought, hhmm, maybe he is waiting for me to come over by him? so I did, to test the water, see if he was waiting for something? when he saw me coming, he jumped in, said see ya, closed the door, and waved as he drove out.
It is nice to have the silent tension gone, for now at least. I suppose I am looking for too much, to be able to talk and touch my husband all in the same week. I am having a very hard time with patience again, continuing the wait and see method. Now I have email from a girl that wants to spend the summer 'working' by us. How do I answer that? Sure, if we're still here, make your plans accordingly.
Off to another meeting, good thing too. A break from this line of thinking.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
