Hanging on/The Long Haul #8

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I have lots to say, and nothing to say. Mostly confused. About me, H, M, R, history, future. What do I know? nothing. For how long? most of the marriage. What I thought I knew, obviously I didn't. We never had what I thought we had. I can still dream my romantic version of it, but it is only my dream, no one shares it with me.

My weekend got better as it rolled along, H's didn't. Little things, I don't think he enjoyed himself so much, but that's just my opinion. He ended up by short turning the horse trailer into a fuel pump, more damage to the trailer. Not a big deal, but he gets pretty irate at himself for stuff like that. Just like when he did with my truck last fall, dinged up the headlight and grill (which is not fixed as he said he would take care of). And last spring when he totalled my last truck and $7000 damage to the trailer, and then a speeding ticket a couple weeks later. He really is a good driver, but has had a streak of bad things happen. And it's showing up on insurance rates. Anyway, he told me about his newest damage, to the trailer, and he sure is upset about it. Me too, but what can be done after the fact? He can't go back and change what was already done, so we fix it, and move on. Just like what we should be doing to our marriage. Fix it, and move on.

Meetings again today, join me later for more rambling thoughts.