Came up behind you and grabbed you???!!! Goodness, this is getting quite hot n heavy...we might have to start rating your posts!
Really, there are ups and downs. You get one good moment, and you either don't allow yourself to feel it, or you feel it and expect it all to go back to happy times. I suppose it's human. You have a good TREND though....nice moments every morning, and through the days--they're not as bad...he did chores, right?
I like the idea of shaking up the restless nights....how about even if you just walk out there, say hi, and pretend you're going to the kitchen, or just talk. I found that the middle of the night when you can't sleep and are awake is the most vulnerable and softest times of day to talk and to be real, to not feel judged or guarded. At least me.
