Maybe it's that I'm subconsciously recreating my own f*cked-up childhood. Maybe I have intimacy issues of my own, and feel more comfortable with someone who doesn't want to get too close. That FOO-FOO bird always comes back to cr@p on your head, doesn't it? But really, I think there is probably great truth in what you stated and it's great that you are able to be so introspective about it all. Way ahead of some other people for sure. Now, you just need to decide what you want to do with all that history. Keep repeating it or learn from it.
