Sheila- I totally understand what you are going through. My emotions are all over the place as well. Sometimes I look at my H and think that someday we will be very happy we stuck to it and worked things out. Then, other days, I look at him and think 'he will never ever change and I don't like the person he is.....how can I live the rest of my life like this?!'
I so understand. I'm thinking of you.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."