Trying, Hi. Thank you for posting to me. You said some comforting things that I needed to hear. I'm a little more calm, still teary. I drank some Ensure, the old back-up meal replacement, "for those backsliding rollercoaster riding days of the LBS." I could do a commercial. And he's going to go back-and-forth and all over again I don't see how. I think he's made up his mind. He sounded very final. this person is not the man I love and it's not the man I married He sure isn't.
This is about him and his inability to be a freakin' grownup I was thinking this over before. He definitely is NOT acting like a grownup. I feel used and walked on. Didn't he even consider how this might affect me emotionally? I guess if he did, he didn't care, because as he said, "I had to find out."
You hang in there, OK? I will try. You are so kind.
Some days the only thing that keeps me going is the genuine caring I have received here on this board (and in real life, from Sassy). I am amazed at the depth of kindness I have seen here. Thank you very much, Trying. I promise to catch up on the other threads including yours, as soon as I have a little more clarity.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
