I guess I took his, “I feel like I don’t know you anymore” as a bad thing, not a good one. As if he’s going to dismiss his previous curiosity due to the fact that he stopped by, spent time, and felt too uncomfortable so he had to leave. To be blunt, I’m afraid that was it, and now he may not want to come back to spend time again, because it didn’t feel comfortable enough last night.
Of course, you, me, and everyone here knows that it would take a lot more than one evening at home having dinner together for him to return to being comfortable, but he doesn’t seem to grasp that idea. That’s why I pointed it out to him on the phone last night.
He doesn't feel comfortable b/c you have turned the tables on him...you've switched it up by being a distancer...and he doesn't like it. Well, if he doesn’t like it, I am sorry for that, but I can’t go back to being the way I was. And ultimately, that isn’t what he wants, either, because he complained about feeling restrained and suffocated when I behaved that way. This is why I am very confused. Is he looking for me to behave in a manner that he ran away from? That makes no sense.
I was doing so well, and now I feel like I slid back down about 100 feet after losing my gripping.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
