Quote: I'm not even looking forward to seeing him, even if I do. It's never positive anymore. He doesn't want to talk about coming back. I just end up emotionally upset.
I don't know if this is "right" or not... but maybe that's a step for you. Maybe you're starting to see that you can be OK with distance. And that distance will eventually give you strength. And whether he knows it or not now, he's going to wonder about why you're not excited when he comes over... Then he's going to go through the whole, well, fine then, she must be mad at me... And you know what, it'll start to not affect you like it used to. And that's OK. It doesn't mean that your marriage is over. It doesn't mean that he's never coming back. It means that you're starting to take care of you (emotionally) and that's essential babe. You hang in there.