This time when he called, he didn't ask how I was doing, or anything about me. But he quickly volunteered how sick he is; he has the flu now. I hadn't even gotten the chance to ask him how he was before he offered up how ill he felt tonight. I'm sorry; did someone just cue the violins?
Hi Hope, this is where wah seems to be right now ~ all full of self pity and not even factoring in anyone else's feelings at all.
I too can relate to this
I think I'm scared because I'm starting to not miss him as much. I know with my head he is a very unhealthy partner and incapable of doing what is needed to have a long lasting relationship. My heart still misses the version of H. that once was, before he jumped on the WAS wagon. I guess I still don't get it that the old version of H. is not who he is right now. He might never be that man again. It's funny, how he can look like the same guy but act like a total stranger.
It's scary as I even mentioned to s-i-l that "I don't know if I love him anymore". After saying that I felt horrid, but if I am being honest with myself that is how I feel right now.
Not too sure of this fairly recent development, so just allowing myself to feel it for now. Too scared really to analyse it fully. I don't know that it is detachment though?
Oops anyhow, I hope you have some lovely things planned for the weekend.
