I’m dealing with something today. I think my H. may be living with o.w., or at least partially staying with her. I would like to ask him if this is the case. I know there are plenty of reasons I shouldn’t. I still want to ask anyway. I mean, he knows where I live; I don’t feel his living situation should be a secret. I just don’t know how to word my question so that he doesn’t feel cornered. Meanwhile I’m writing out on an index card the few things I do want to say to him next time I see him. I’m revising it so that it’s as short as possible (learned to say things in as few words as possible when talking to WAH). I’d like to incorporate my question about where he’s living presently into my conversation, but I don’t know what I’m going to say. Every day I wake up and I feel a little less hopeful about my M. ever being restored. I mean, who am I fooling here? If H. were interested in working things out, he’d be contacting me and making that clear.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.