I truly love you guys. You make me feel so much better. Really.

Sassy, good idea; I'll let him lead the conversation. I'll have different things prepared to say, depending on where the talk goes. I'm really not intending to have some big R. talk; I just felt it might be important to him if he heard me say, "I hear you!" because he mostly thinks I don't.

Vinces, to answer your question, H. never really brought up a divorce; he suggested a legal separation but did not push the issue. We are going to split up our finances for now. Over a week ago, I met with H. in person and he suggested all this, he seemed very final and negative about us, etc. Said some crazy stuff:
-What he's looking for in a R. right now doesn't require a lot of trust.
-Gave me the impression he has not been faithful to o.w.
-Doesn't want to live with anyone, share things with anyone
and so on. Later that night, he called me very late. During that phone conversation he was all over the map, one minute restating that he wasn't coming back, the next telling me he just needed some time. It's like he couldn't stick to one thought process or something.
Al, thanks so much for the compliment. Sometimes I still feel so lousy that I can't see how I've grown; I'm so glad it shows here. I'm trying so hard to hold it together and figure out my life from here. It's unfolding a little at a time.


Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.