The Other Side of the Mountain

[hopefloats7]

Hi kismet,

Thanks for checking in. Yes, you are right---puppy does bark at the phone, so this only added to the commotion! Thankfully, today is a quieter day.

I spoke with H. today. We are going to come together and work out our finances so that he will give me a check each month to help pay the bills here. This is going to eliminate the need for him to call me with acct. updates all the time. This is fine; I will be better capable to budget the money and keep track of my end of it.
The downside is that it's another step away from any reconciliation. Now we're splitting up finances...this will probably lead to more split ups, I'm sure. It feels more and more like we're headed for divorce.

I had a nice long talk with my favorite aunt today. She's got a good ear; she really empathizes with me, and tells me she hears me being stronger, and that makes her happy. She doesn't try to push me into leaving or anything like that. She understands I feel that my marriage is important.
She has asked me if I think H. is "on" something. Strangely, she is not the first person who has asked me this. She also asked me if I thought he is bipolar, or has some kind of mental disorder. I don't really know; I wish he would go to a psychologist and get help.
She agreed with me though: the man I married would not like the person H. has turned into at all.

Bought myself an early Valentine's day present. I had a coupon to receive 50% off a purchase of $100 or more at a jewelry store here; I also had tucked away some money I received at Christmas. I put the two together and got a beautiful pink sapphire heart shaped necklace that I'd been eyeing for the longest time (it was also on sale!). I have it on as a reminder---I must love myself enough to get through this!

Going to check in with the other threads...