"I could just be at a point where things are calm and I am mistaking it for detachment"

I know what u mean...I thought I was detaching and then this moring I feel like I'm at square one again...I'm feeling myself counting the min before 6:30 MC appt...so much anxiety...not depressed...just looking for the latest update in my sitch...and not knowing where ill be tomorrow...D or light in the tunnel of darkness? I just don't know.