No, it was not one day. It was realizing that I needed to do this for a LONG time and it was what was holding me back from being happy with myself, and even my family/wife. It has been one day since I made the decision and I am taking stock of the changes that may already be occurring. It's WAY too soon to tell what the hell is going on with me. I have NO idea if I can remain like this. Like I said in my thread (i think), I am going to be tested, this I know. I could be in denial (see my thread), I could just be at a point where things are calm and I am mistaking it for detachment. I don't know, but I am going to trust myself that I am doing what's best for me, and in my month here, years of casually thinking about these things, and the reading I've done lately, I have learned that getting rid of my control issues and detaching are the most important things I need to do to improve my life, and yes, save my marriage if it's possible. Like NYS said (paraphrasing here...lol) it begins with a decision and (my words now) commitment to yourself to follow it through to the best of your ability. Sorry for the rant today. I guess it comes in waves...
