Love your valentines pressie to yourself. Very nice! But will the chooks enjoy it as much as you?
As long as I come bearing food that isn't chook food those spoilt girls don't really mind what I wear. Although I have to be careful with bright toe polish as they peck my toes
Great night last night. I highly recommend Mrs Henderson. I laughed and cried and laughed some more. A really lovely movie ~ bit of a chick flick though, lots there the fellahs will appreciate
I did not realise how tall the basketball players are in real life. I was talking to one of the short ones and he was tall, the tall ones were huge. Enjoyable evening, even wore a girly dress and skinny heels.
Bad moment today when I spotted a lady who's husband works with wah. She was in front of me, and didn't see me. I lingered as just didn't feel up to seeing her. Then I got angry with myself. Why do I feel shame, when he left?
I think I still have this belief (maybe left over from my father leaving) that if I was nicer/tried harder he wouldn't have left. I know it is irrational, but it is still there, maybe not as strong as it was, but never the less. Thought about it a little and let it go. I think I need to practice some visualisation techniques tonight before I crash into bed.
Went and saw a friend's paintings. They are very good ~ a lot of them seem to be therapeutic. Some I loved, but others were too dark for me.One in particular I fell in love with, it was an abstract thing of everything that makes up a woman, all in blues and very soft. Maybe when I get a job, although she doesn't really want to sell that one.
I am thinking that I should move from this thread. Humming and haaing. I dont feel as commited as I was, worried that that is reflected in my posts to others. Feeling in limbo though, as not divorcing, but have realised that I have no real future. Not down though, just slightly over it all.
Applied for a job yesterday and haven't heard anything back yet, but fingers crossed.
Hi kismet love those tall boys, we get alot of police in at work and some of them must be basket ball players cause they tower over me and I always feel very short (5'3") but geez they look good from down here hehehehehehe
Quote: Still can't believe someone would pay $13,500 for a weekend with anyone must be loaded......
Got my fingers crossed for the job thing - I'm sending very positive vibes down under!
Thanks Beth ~ love those positive vibes down under .
I only 3 chickens, there was 4, 2 white 2 black, Zoe and Chloe, Henny and Penny. Unfortunately Henny was a Henry and departed to the big chookhouse in the sky. They are very spoilt, (get porridge for breakfast in winter)and yes the pecking does hurt.
But on mornings when I have my omelettes with lovely yellow eggs I can forgive them.
Maybe you could just "babysit" the painting for a while
Great thinking amd. I don't think her works are too expensive, so maybe next pressie for me.
but geez they look good from down here hehehehehehe
Hey Ruth ~ yes gotta love a man in uniform.
Yoyo thanks for dropping in.
Well, not too sure on my current state of mind. Whether I am detaching or going backwards. Wah dropped in yesterday briefly to see S14. I was going for a jog anyway so just went early. He actually said hello,which is an improvement on past visits. I was only gone for about 30 minutes, and he left shortly after, so very quick visit.
Later I thought, this is the first time I had seen him in about 2 weeks. No pitter patter, nothing, just an I really cannot be bothered even making small talk.
How is that I can look at someone who used to make me go weak at the knees, and just feel a slight annoyance that he is here in my house?
Still finding a lot of feelings coming through. Sometimes I feel as though I am going backwards, but then I rationalise that I want to deal with all of this, so I am totally healed.
One thing that I realised today was that since I have gone through all of this, I am amazed by the kindness of strangers. It is like I have a sign on my back that says "Be nice to me". Nearly everywhere I go of late, I manage to have lovely little interchanges with people I don't know. 3 this morning, just in 1 store.
I don't know that I am reaching out more to people, or am just being sent these angels to cheer me up. Met a lovely old man today who reminded me of my Poppa. As he left even gave me a hug.
Thanks yoyo for dropping in. Not too sure on the job thing as they were meant to get back within 48 hours if interested. Oh well, College starts on Monday anyway.
Hey kismet...just dropping in for a quick Hi. I can relate to the feelings about WAH. My XH called me 4 times today about this or that. I really was annoyed, I didn't want to talk to him at all! I kept it cheerful, but cut it short, so I don't understand it either, but I guess we are getting through it, one way or another! Have a great day! VJ
Quote: Sometimes I feel as though I am going backwards, but then I rationalise that I want to deal with all of this, so I am totally healed.
Well said - although sometimes I wonder what it will take for a scar that big to eventually fade ....
Kismet you are doing so great. Your husband must really wonder sometimes what he's missing. I reckon half of his problem over the past few months has been how independent and "over him" you seem. That can't be an easy thing for a midlife-crisis-on-legs to deal with.
Goodluck with the job and enjoy college.
Take care, V
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
Hello...hello... just checking in and see how you are doing. And you are doing fine...so keep it up. Those feelings have to crop up and dealt with somehow or other. So, the earlier you have faced it, the better...
