Love your valentines pressie to yourself. Very nice! But will the chooks enjoy it as much as you?
As long as I come bearing food that isn't chook food those spoilt girls don't really mind what I wear. Although I have to be careful with bright toe polish as they peck my toes
Great night last night. I highly recommend Mrs Henderson. I laughed and cried and laughed some more. A really lovely movie ~ bit of a chick flick though, lots there the fellahs will appreciate
I did not realise how tall the basketball players are in real life. I was talking to one of the short ones and he was tall, the tall ones were huge. Enjoyable evening, even wore a girly dress and skinny heels.
Bad moment today when I spotted a lady who's husband works with wah. She was in front of me, and didn't see me. I lingered as just didn't feel up to seeing her. Then I got angry with myself. Why do I feel shame, when he left?
I think I still have this belief (maybe left over from my father leaving) that if I was nicer/tried harder he wouldn't have left. I know it is irrational, but it is still there, maybe not as strong as it was, but never the less. Thought about it a little and let it go. I think I need to practice some visualisation techniques tonight before I crash into bed.
Went and saw a friend's paintings. They are very good ~ a lot of them seem to be therapeutic. Some I loved, but others were too dark for me.One in particular I fell in love with, it was an abstract thing of everything that makes up a woman, all in blues and very soft. Maybe when I get a job, although she doesn't really want to sell that one.
I am thinking that I should move from this thread. Humming and haaing. I dont feel as commited as I was, worried that that is reflected in my posts to others. Feeling in limbo though, as not divorcing, but have realised that I have no real future. Not down though, just slightly over it all.
Applied for a job yesterday and haven't heard anything back yet, but fingers crossed.
