Gonna add to the thread hijack but hey I will make it up to you someway!
I was flicking through a fashion catalog and realised I just was not interested in anything because HE wouldn't ever see me wearing it - I mean how dumb is that
It's kind of funny that the M is going fine at the moment even though all this is going on for me in the background
I don't intend to do that.
I'm hoping I can hold that position once work-guy is gone.
So you are working on yourself and self esteem and appearance for yourself right?
Your M is going better right?
Though you know you are infatuated with another male and have newness hormones to butt going on You think you won't go back to your old ways when work guy is gone.
Please read the first statement that I have reposted of yours. And then say again how all this is for you and your working on your marriage.
Then go to the second sentence. Your M is no better dear. All those fuzzy feelings are being transferred to your H that you have for work man. It is what is going on in the back ground that makes your M appear to be going better. Supplys about to run out what you gonna do then?
I believe the next lines answer that. You don't intend to go back to not putting in so much effort into your self. But are not sure you can hold onto to this high/self esteem rush once he is gone.
I am not trying to be mean or harsh. I am not trying to be a hypocrite because I also had a EA of sorts. But reality is your infatuation drug/rush is about to run out and what deversion it is providing you and emotional pump up it is giving you is about to end cold turkey. And you will be faced with the reality that it is helping you hide from. Be prepared my dear it is not pretty or a fun ride.
My H did not provide me with conversation and stimulation that I needed. My EA did well 18 months afterwards my H still does not provide these things. I have more of a relationship with others on this board. And it sucks but I am not hiding from the reality of it anymore.
