Sorry to LFL for hijacking her thread here, just seems like the most obvious place to be journalling what's going on with me for the next few days.

Well after the upbeat post of Friday and Saturday, Sunday was a bit of a downer. I had to admit to myself that many of GEL's remarks were correct. You can have a one-sided EA and that is what is going on for me. I was flicking through a fashion catalog and realised I just was not interested in anything because HE wouldn't ever see me wearing it - I mean how dumb is that.

Still only 4 more days to go, and today was fine, nothing flirty happened. I stayed calm and reasonable all day - no heart-pounding.

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One thing I would caution you about is the "OM makes me feel so good about myself that I treat myself and H better" line of reasoning. It can REALLY backfire on you. If your H gets an inkling that you are dressing nicer, acting sweeter, etc. partly to impress some other guy, it won't matter if some of the new you bleeds into your M. Just imagine if the roles were reversed. Would the fact that your H was wearing a cologne you really liked be a positive thing if you knew one reason he wore it was to attract the attention of another woman?



Chromo, he did. And I did like it until I found out why. What I didn't like is that he went back to the bad old slobby ways after OW was out of his life. I don't intend to do that. It's kind of funny that the M is going fine at the moment even though all this is going on for me in the background. I'm hoping I can hold that position once work-guy is gone.

I absolutely have stopped talking to my sister about it. You're right of course she has a screw loose (I knew that), but then she's my sister

I'm OK I really am and I reckon I won't be journalling on this topic again, it only serves to keep it to the front of my mind instead of letting it drift away like it should.

thanks for looking out for me

Fran

if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs
Erica Jong