The real thing to realize Tim is that you have never really stopped "your old ways". You may have suspended them as a ploy to get her back the first time she left, but as evidenced by your reaction before/during/after Mexico and how you were acting the last two weeks, you never really made the changes YOU needed to make. I can't say if it would have made a difference in what's going on now but you know it would have made a tremendous difference in you. You are advising me to stay the course heading into my planned trip to Ireland with my W (and her sister, BIL and a girlfriend of sister) and I plan on doing that. It is a chance for me to really prove to myself that I am the man I want to be, need to be. I will not do this for my W, I will do this for my life. If I can just go on this trip, release the HUGE expectations that I could come up with, relax and have a great time simply because I will be in a great place doing great things, then I would know I was capable of most anything. I keep telling you to use this trip to Vegas as your proving ground. Prove to yourself that you are capable of being Tim for Tim's sake. Have fun but don't do it to spite her. Miss your kids but stop there. Don't worry about what she's doing, make her worry about what YOU'RE doing. You are making the changes, just keep it up.
