Hi Tim, wow alot has happened to you over the weekend. I believe you portray two different people to your W and that is probably why you haven't made alot of impact on her b/c you keep resorting back to your old ways, which would make her think you are not going to change.
Start looking out for you and whatever will be will be with you and your W as you cannot force her to give up OM that is something she needs to decide in her own time and in her own way otherwise if things go bad with them its going to be all your fault (whether it is or not) in her eyes that is what she will see.
So i agree with the others take it easy step back leave her alone and just look after you and the kids.....Kim