I would like to first apologize to all those out there who contributed to my post and tried to help. It meant alot! I have been doing some soul searching, and I realized I lost a big thing in my life since I found out my W is back together with the OM. I lost respect, and compassion. I did not respect my W, and I lost the compassion for the one person I truly love. I lost the respect for myself to know that I am a better person than the way I have been acting, and I lost compassion for myself to allow myself to feel the emmotions and to let them flow without reacting. Tomorrow is another day and life will go on. I have to find strength from within, and set the example that I truly want to show for my kids. My W will live her life the way she feels fit, and I have to let go. I have been trying to control it again ever since we started this rollercoaster ride again. I have gained so much from this message board: knowledge insight love compassion and friends Now it is time to take action that will be positive for myself, the kids, and with hope for my realationship. Starting right now I am going to live my life for me. I will allow my W to share in it when she is ready. I will always be there for my kids, and I will be there for my W when she asks for it. I will give as much as I can to others and expect nothing in return. I will show respect and compassion to all the people I love not just my W. Hopefully people will still read my sitch and get something from it.
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
