Hi TMU Whilst I agree with what others have said I do want to say that I totally understand your need to get things off your chest. Other than your 4 year old I bet you feel a bit better about getting that out into the open.
Sometimes I think it is necessary to release it all and yes it may set you back a bit with reconciliation but sometimes it does just make then take a good look at themselves. Whether your W does or not remains to be seen but my H did when I let it rip.
They are quite amazing though when you point things out to them and they say "I don't want to discuss it now" that used to frustrate the hell out of me too. We sit and do all the right things whilst they do all the wrong ones and as understanding as what we are we are supposed to continually just accept their behaviour.
I found that whilst I was working my own feelings out I did all the right things but then when I had enough and truly thought to myself "I dont need this and can live without" and meant it, then I said what I wanted to say prepared to move on and that's when it seemed to hit home with my H and everything started to change.
I don't think this is something that can be faked though you really have to go through alot of ups and downs to reach that point.
Sorry for rambling but I was just trying to make you see that it is all just part of your individual journey through this nightmare. Yes you may have lost your cool but we all do so move on from it. I also wanted to point out that sometimes when we make a mistake and blow up it's not always that bad.....
Goodluck and I look forward to your next update....Kim
