as Vince suggested in his thread, that I seem to have turned a corner pretty quick here and I am just covering my bases.
T, wherever you are today is just fine. You're recognizing the path to take, and one crawls before they can walk, and they fall down lot a lot along the way. Thankfully, they're usually tinier at that point and so the fall isn't as painful as from several feet higher, though I don't what the hell that has to do with us. As long as you're making progress, your time journeying upon the road there doesn't matter as much as the journey itself.
I would LOVE for my W to see the changes in me, once sufficient time goes by to make them more real to her, and agree to work on our R.
Her seeing your changes can most definitely happen, and most probably will, as that's totally in your control. The second part, her agreeing, that's in her control of course.
I would LOVE for her to tell my tomorrow that she's left the OM but I can no longer wait for that to get my happiness.
If she told you that tomorrow, I guarantee your thinking that would bring you "happiness" would prove to be an illusion, not real happiness.
It's also good that you're clearing out unrealistic expectations.
[for the first time in a LONG time, I walked out to go to lunch and the sky was a beautiful blue, I heard the birds and the wind in the trees. It was just beautiful.
You're reconnecting with the beauty of the world around you... taking notice of it, appreciating it, you're now starting to live. It is a beautiful, wondrous thing. Our lives in this world are not to be taken for granted. And that connection is very healing too.
Here's an email exchange between me and an old pal artist friend of mine about that:
Robert: "Now is the point in the day where I cant really start another section of the painting and I don't have a good book to read so I just sit. Sometimes I sit for quite some time and don't really think. I just listen to the sounds around me. The train goes by, a dog barks, I hear the clock ticking, the wind or rain, my breathing, my heart beating. It's really quite nice."
Me: "Sounds like an enjoyable time, relaxing, soothing, meditative perhaps. It's amazing how much does go on around us that we don't make ourselves aware of. I like to look at the moon and stars at night and feel a sense of awe and wonder. It's really the old "Stop and smell the roses". We're only around once, and the planet and consciousness is an amazing place to be in and not take for granted.
Get back to work."
OK T, that'll be $125 for the session, please. No extra charge for the quotes.
