It's like nothing in my life gets past the "this sucks" filter I have. I am uninterested in everything. I am supposed to GAL but nothing makes me happy. I went to see a movie and I just sat there watching numb. It was ok, but...
I can relate to feeling this way; it's normal. It's not a good way to be feeling, but it happens to a lot of us. I can tell you that time helped me a lot, and (hate to say it) detaching from H. which was made easier for me because he doesn't live with me, and he cut back on his visits here. I realize you live with your wife, and this is going to make it more difficult, but you CAN do it!
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.