OMG, Me? I have no f#%#ing strength. I am only strong because I have not had to face my ultimate fears in all this. I feel totally weak right now and the slightest thing will tip the balance to "I don't give a damn anymore". I don't want that to happen because as much as we say we don't control them, or the situation, we do control some of it in-so-much-as if we say to them "ok, have it your way. I am filing for divorce, please sign on the dotted line." it may very well be the death nail in our marriages. I am so totally messed up right now. I have never felt my screen name applied so well. I pray (something REALLY new for me) that we get through this intact. You know no matter what, I will try to be here for you and anyone else who asks.
