Thanks lisa. I have really taking the time to look at myself. I realize all that Ive had done wrong and am improving everyday. I had to detach because it was eating me up and i found out it was getting me knowhere. I now have to think about myself and my kids. If and when she ever returns. I don't know what kind of state of mind I'll be in. She has made me put up my own walls to her and it'll take alot to tear them down. She has done so much hurt to us. But, I take it day by day, doing my own thing to better my life with these girls. In the time we've been on our own. we have learned alot about each other and have become so close. So at least I have that. One good thing that came out of this. Just one so far....
