I started this a while ago. I have a link in Newcommers/I just got the bomb. I don't know how to link it from here. I was having some stress from the aniversary of Dads death, Tried to keep myself busy with projects I have going on around the house. I have come to the point where I have detached myself from her. I was doing great until my girls came home and started asking questions.
I simply told them I didn't want to talk about mom and I don't wan to hear whats shes doing. But, now after they started talking, Im back to wondering. My mind is racing so fast. I have found ways to change my thought pattern, but its so hard. seems to go back and forth. Like I said, the big D is fast approaching. Her fog is not lifting, and I have to make some decisions that I really dont want to make. But in the interest of my kids. I have to do this. I know its not going to make points with the W. But at this point, I really can't care what she thinks of me. Her mind is made up. Heck, even her mother, who was on my side in the begining, has truned on me. God only knows what shes been saying. I bet its not good, She has to validate to everyone her reasons for her actions and shes doing a good job. Only 2 people know the truth. Me and her. I just hope the guilt will set in soon and she realizes what shes doing to us.
