I don’t really know what to make of H’s behavior last night. I wasn’t feeling well so I took some medicine and went to bed very early. Shortly after 9pm, I heard my cell ringing. When that stopped, the house line rang. No message left. I went back to sleep. This goes on about every ½ hour until 11pm: cell rings, then house line. I’m not picking up because I’m trying to get some sleep. I heard my cell beep indicating a message had been left (twice), and a message was also left on the home machine. Of course, this was H. calling and I finally got up around 11pm to get some water, and I checked the messages. By the third one, you could hear the attitude in his voice because I wasn’t answering either phone. He was at work, and said he didn’t know if maybe he needed to come by and let our puppy out. [this is ridiculous; he works about 1 ½ hours from our house; furthermore, I’ve never been neglectful of puppy and he knows this.] While I was up, he called yet again and I finally answered. He said he’d been trying to reach me (obviously) and I told him I wasn’t feeling well and went to bed early. He said, “At 9pm?” I said yes, I have an earache. I was asleep. Well, once he figured out that I had been home all along he couldn’t get off the phone fast enough. Maybe he was embarrassed, I don’t know. He apologized about waking me up, and said he would call me tomorrow. I don’t feel encouraged about this; I’m just annoyed. If he doesn’t want me anymore, leave me alone so I can emotionally get over this.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
