I'm having a difficult evening; don't know why. I don't feel very strong and very much would like to call H. but I won't. I know he is off tonight, so maybe that's why the urge...because I don't know where he is. deb, I really appreciate you posting to me. When I read what you wrote today it made me sit up and take notice. Lately, I've felt like giving up completely, but maybe I was supposed to read your post today and let it give me strength; let it tell me to be still. Deb, I've got to say, 3 years is a long time. I give you a lot of credit. I don't know if I can do this that long. I don't even know I would want to. I do love my H. very much, but I should point out that I don't think he would allow this to go on that long. He's already talked to me about a D. although nothing has been filed. shocked, today isn't the day to give up, so I won't. I know I need to have more faith and let H. figure this out all by himself. Maybe he will, maybe not. I've been considering that I really haven't been detaching (i.e., not pursuing) for very long; maybe about a month now. Perhaps if I keep it up, it will make a difference. Can't hurt to try at this point. The support I receive here is priceless; I've said this many times. I would not know what to do if it weren't for the people on this board. Thanks so much for caring and posting today, because I really needed to hear it.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
