Such things certainly make us wonder, don't they? I've thought some about that too in the last 24 hours. Reading over these legal papers and imagining moving forward with this court stuff makes me sometimes wonder why H chose this path. And oftentimes I wonder if *he* wonders that. Five months ago, we seemed happily married. Now, we're battling things out in court??? It just doesn't make sense, and it seems to me that he'd just want to wave the white flag at this point and remember all the good times we had; they, in fact, far outweigh the bad ones. But now our R has been reduced to spitting matches in courtrooms?? And why? Who or what for??
But with all that being said, I don't know what my H's thinking, and I probably wouldn't *want* to know. And regardless, it really doesn't change my path.
Likewise with you. I'm happy for you not calling him, even though I know you still think of him all the time.
Just keep walking through the fire, Hope. There's an end out there somewhere.