Quote: I don’t know, the affair is bad enough, but if I am correct in my deducing and he has been with others as well as o.w., he is becoming very unappealing to me.
This is where I am right now too... as adament as i was last week is as unsure as i am this week... crazy right? is this how it's going to be? is this how i'm going to be in the future? with him or with someone else? it's so confusing.... you hang in there, i feel confident that the pieces of the puzzle will fall into place at some point. for all of us. wouldn't it be nice if we could figure out what the picture was going to be so we could at least start working on the center instead of nudging around the edges?
Quote: Sometimes I wonder if that is because he’s trying to wear me down; maybe I’ll get to the point where I can’t take this minimal interaction with him anymore and I’ll put this marriage out of its misery. I’m not at that stage yet.
I don't know... i have minimal interaction and have pretty much from the day he left... and i can't seem to get it together... one day i think, ok, i'm done i'm going to file... and then the next, i think, no let the bastard file if he wants this so bad, and then the next i think, please, please don't let him file... i guess we'll go back-and-forth until we're really done. i think? i don't know... sorry i'm not much help today... should have kept my big fat keyboard shut.
but you hang in there OK? i'm so proud of you and so proud of the progess you've made and your thought processes, you help keep me sane!! or at least the illusion of sanity
