Been doing much thinking about my situation, and H’s actions. I did hear from him yesterday; he was cordial, asked how my weekend was, how my family has been. He was actually calling to ask me if I knew where something was (paperwork he needed) at our house, so there was a purpose for his call. Still, it was nice to hear from him. I don’t know, the affair is bad enough, but if I am correct in my deducing and he has been with others as well as o.w., he is becoming very unappealing to me. I might be able to forgive the affair, but the philandering activities beyond that are even more bothersome to me. What is H. turning into? I know I shouldn’t allow my imagination to get the best of me, but the thoughts are ever present and I do not like how I feel inside about my H. right now. How could he love me at all, if he could behave this way?
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
