Just a little encouraging word about those words that are too painful to read right now, Hope:
Not too long ago I pulled my journals out that I had kept during my fiasco with XH. I either laughed or became furious at myself as I read through them. What you'll find amazing is reading those things a year or so from now and realizing how far you've come and how much you've grown. It's really good to keep them, even when you get to that point.
