Not this time, but there have been times it's been literal!
Found a dress; it's really nice. Black, sleeveless, deep V-neck, assymetrical hem, fitted. I think it's tasteful and classy for a bridesmaid. And it was half price, so I had to buy it. Wasn't going to do better than that.
I did hear from H. briefly this afternoon. Nothing he couldn't have left a message about. There is no joy in his voice when he speaks to me, and he says so little about himself, what he's doing, how he's been. Then I hear him speaking to some guy who's walked up to him, and he puts on a whole different demeanor...his voice changes, he sounds happier. When he comes back to me on the phone, he sounds miserable again. He did have the courtesy to ask me how things are going, what I've been up to. Not that I think he cares; he just asks to make conversation.
Someone I know explained it to me like this: it's depression. When he's talking to me, he lets the true him come out; he takes off the mask and shows how he really feels to me. Around others, the mask goes on, and he pretends all is great in his life, when it actually isn't. He feels comfortable enough with me to show himself to me. Everyone else gets the actor.
I don't know if this is true or not.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
