Trying to move forward one step at a time

[StrongEnough]

Always.....I am sorry to hear that you are struggling today and having a bad day. You gave me some really good advice on my thread, and if only you could apply it to your situation, you might feel a little better.

Work on you and let H work on himself for now. Take half the effort you put into thinking about your M everyday, and put that towards yourself instead. Don't ride the roller coaster I am on. Like you told me, you can't control your H's actions or lack thereof, you can only work on YOU and control your own actions and emtions. Keep them in check.

Do the two of you attend MC? It seems that communication is a problem for most couples, that's why a lot of us are here to begin with, ineffective verbal and non-verbal communication problems. H and I know this is a huge problem for us, so we decided to wait for MC to guide us to communicate better. Is this something that H might be interested in doing?

Think about your personal goals, post them here, vent here, cry here. If meditation isn't helping your PMA, then it's time to try and find something else that may work for you.

I'm sorry to say that you do remind me a lot of my H. Looking for changes everyday, hoping that things get better quicker then they are really going to. This all takes time and whole boatload of patience. I know you want to see positives from your H, that's normal. But, remember, no expectations. IF you continue to have expectations that your H acknowledge things, initiate things, etc. and get attached to that outcome, you are going to be continuously let down.

Hang in there. You are doing good. We all have our really bad days now and then.

~SE